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So busy this few days after come back from camp..don't have time to update my blog also..The family camp was fun..lol..at first was scare bout the camp..but after attended it, it was fun after all..not bad..although we lack of sleep..3 days of camp we just sleep for lest then 1 hour only..so damn tiring..

The first day of camp, we were arranged into 11 groups..( 170 ++ of juniors going..it was the biggest camp I've ever attend ever..) after that, we had to set up our camp and had briefing bout our activities..after having dinner, we had to present our team logo, team motto, and team yell a.k.a team slogan..( I'm from team 2 named HURA..HURA is a kind of plant which is small but with thorn..)..I was the 1 who did the presentation..so damn nervous..but it was success at last..haha..then we were given our 'nama hutan' each..mine was called 'LILIN'..I was consider luckily coz my nama hutan was quite nice..( Thx to Senior Leong Chern Shii)..haha..Why I was given that name?..He said I " tak tahan panas "..maybe..lol..Around 12 am, we had our first activity..Jungle trakking..we were brought to the jungle..IN A GROUP of course..it was quite fun..

The 2nd day, our 2nd activity was jungle trakking 2..we were brought to another jungle with accompany by our 2 facci..Jeffrey a.k.a Black mentor and Kak ilyna a.k.a Terubok..they were very friendly to us and treat us well too..then we had 'blind trail'..our 3rd activity for the day..my leg was cramp at the end of the activity..so damn pain..>.<..luckily my senior help to get me out of the water..thx senior!!..at night, we had an activity that was the most scariest..we had been left alone in the jungle for almost 1 and half hours while waiting for the seniors to come and rescue us..I don't dare to move at all..but it was a great exprience for me..

The 3rd day, we had 'larian lasak'..we had a lot of sections to gone through..after that activities, my hand started to feel itcy..I had alergy..haha..now still feel itcy..lol..during 3 am, we been told to ' rendam' in the water..so damn cold..all the seniors so scary...but they said it was tradition..everyone must stay in the water for few minutes..


Overall, the family camp was quite interesting..and some of the seniors was friendly..I'm going to be busy as I'm an ajk for pesta tanglung and also my school's bulan kemerdekaan..been ask by my seniors to attend..>.<

Btw, I just got my PTPTN money..YEAH..I'm rich again..lol..going shopping tomorrow!!..wahaha...

Ums just got 1 student had H1N1 flu disease already..so scary..hope the university won't close..argh...



Dear must take care lo..drink more water lo..don't get sick again..miss you..
Count down:..Lost counted..help me to count bah..lol..

Busy busy busy...>.<

I've got lots of assignments!!..had to pass up one by next week..Argh!...I've got lots of activities also..aiks..going to the family camp tomorrow..I don't wish to go!!...HELP..

I've spent lots of money too!!..I'm broke..aiks..


Still coughing..>.<..hope to get well soon..

Happy 11th month anniversary dear..1 more month to go..yeah..miss you..

count down : 59 days to go..

What a day..

I'm sick again..This time is more worst..Having fever and cough..went to see doctor today..He said that my condition is not worst..Luckily..But he did suspect me having HINI..lol..BUT sure I don't have it of course...I'm just having fever and cough..no flu..phew..


Today also settled my PTPTN loan already..Finally everything had done..can concentrate in my studies already..Next week onwards I will be having 2-5PM classes on MONDAY to WEDNESDAY..Luckily I don't have it on THURSDAY and FRIDAY..Thursday, my schedule is packed..and Friday is my holiday of course..haha..Thanks to Mr David, our handsome lab assistant for arranging such a suitable time for my afternoon classes..haha..


Updated news..I will be coming home for RAYA on 20 SEPT 2009 at 640pm..reaching KLIA around 9 30pm I think..then I will be leaving to KK by 27 SEPT 2009 at 640pm too..lol..the next day I had morning class..Crazy de me..lol..Dear not sure coming back anot that time coz he say Air ticket is expensive..But I do hope He will come back lo..Coz I miss him SO SO SO SO MUCH!!..Hope miracles will happen..GOD..Please help us..I know you love us s much as we LOVE you..THX ALOT!!..


The weather in KK is much more worst then in KLANG..Everyday the weather change from cold to hot..During the day, the sun shines so brightly..den during evening, it will rain..aiks..No wonder everyone is sick..


DEAR..MISS YOU SO MUCH..>.<

COUNT DOWN : 65 DAYS TO GO..

Feel so tired again..Everyday also like this..Everyone keep on saying that you will be enjoying your univerisity life..Well, honestly, I didn't enjoy it at all..I felt exhausted since the first step in UMS..Frankly, I didn't 100% hated here..The environment is very good here..But I feel lost sometimes..I feel like I had live with 2 faces in this world..Whenever I am with my friends, I will show off my happy face, My happy emotions..But whenever I'm alone, I will be the kind of person that everyone fear the most : EMO??..I don't know whether it's correct to describe it..I'm not EMO today..well, I can't explain my feelings for today either..


Last time, I would like to be with my gang..I would like to hang out with them..fooling around with them..make some silly + funny jokes...but right now, I prefer to be alone..Why?..No idea..Maybe I like to be alone..or Maybe I'm found back my long long long lost 'SIBLINGS'??..

Some of my friends are sick now..I'm sick too..Everyday wake up with headaches..Walking non-balancing..Homesick as well..And Lovesick??..Don't know the other way far far at the north feel the same anot??..


V are much better now..( I guess )..still trying to make it up..still giving out more efforts..He is trying too..ADD MORE OILS DEAR...I know you can do it..Maybe it had become like this bcoz you can't find a suitable way to deal with it..And maybe it is another test from god that send to us so that to test whether we can deal with it anot..I'm sure we will..From the first day that we been together, I've known that you are my destiny..I had given everything to you..My love, My efforts..I don't know whether you feel it the same anot..Coz you never tell me this before and I don't dare to ask this question to you...But I know you feel the same too..It's woman's sixth sense..haha...hope it is true...And the third MAYBE is we r apart..you are worrying bout the same things as I am..And we can't meet each day of course..so I hope that during this 4 years you keep your heart safe..LOCK it up in a safety space..no one can take it..and just specially for me..like what you did from the very beginning..I had lock myself too..will be rational all the time..just the same thing that I wanna tell you...ADD MORE OILS...don't think about the past..JUST THIINK BOUT THE FUTURE..as long as you had given out your efforts, you had try it hard, IT IS ENOUGH..don't give too much pressure to yourself..coz IT WON'T WORK IF YOU PUSH IT TOO HARD..AND DO THINK BOUT ME OF COURSE..lol..


I will be back on RAYA..YEAH...the schedule..haven confirm yet coz don't know Poh Yee's aunt book already anot..but I'M SURE I WILL BE BACK..WAHAHA...DEAR GOING TO BOOK TICKET ALSO..but he say maybe..so he MAYBE will be coming back..but I HOPE he WILL COME BACK lo..MISS HIM SO MUCH LE!!!...Yeah..just receive calls from poh yee..her aunt had book the ticket from KK to KLIA..YES!!..haha..I"M OFFICALLY COMING BACK ON 20 SEPT 2009..reaching here by 9.05pm..Taking MAS..lol..My first exprience taking MAS..THEN back to KK on 26 SEPT 2009..Taking AIRASIA..haha..no choice..booking different air tickets is cheaper..ESPECIALLY during RAYA time..


DEAR, MISS YOU LE...>.<..SAW YOU ON9..BUT DON'T DARE TO CHAT WITH YOU..WANNA CALL YOU..BUT SCARE DISTURBING YOU..DON'T KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOING TO READ THIS ANOT..CAN LET ME KNOW??..ERM..CAN CALL ME AR SOMETIMES?..MISS YOUR VOICE..ALL THIS I DON'T DARE TO TELL YOU..COZ I SCARE YOU WILL FEEL ANNOYING WITH ME..HOPE YOU WON'T FEEL ME ANNOYING..TAKE CARE DEAR..LUV YA..


COUNT DOWN : 67 DAYS..

Today is the first Sunday that I didn't go out since I'm in UMS..So how did I past my time?..The answer is...At LIBRARY lo..UMS Library quite big..and the air-con is super duper cold..Argh..first time when I went to the library, I didn't bring my jacket..So, I freezing in there..Now, abit clever already..so..I get ready with my jacket..lol..Studying in the library really not a good idea..Why did I said that??..Coz..you will get addicted with internet when you bring your laptop along.. WIFI..the line is good.. somemore it is FREE..lol..so..aiks..today only manage to read about few pages..(not more than 10 pages I think)..then the rest of the time I spent it during online..haha...


Today I oso get my notes from the seniors..Thanks alot!!..They are very friendly although we are stranger to each other..haha..Hope we can be good friends in the future..( I still need your help oso..)^^..And I just receive a good news also..My camp maybe will be postponed..YEAH!!..Actually I quite like camp la..But it is only too soon..Somemore next week the PTPTN officer will come and collect the PTPTN files from those who had got it..So, I still have time to prepare for it..YEAH!!...


Thanks to those who post some comments in my chat box..I'm ok already..I've think positively..I will take it as a challenge and face it like a BIG GIRL..Thanks for your support guys..LUV YA SO MUCH..Take care everyone..hope to see you guys soon..I will be back on 21 NOV on 630pm flight..so maybe will reach LCCT in around 930 - 10 pm flight..So take note..haha..We can hang out again during that time..


MISS DEAR DEAR AGAIN..COUNT DOWN :132 DAYS TO GO..^^

>.<

Aiks..phone no credit already..wake up super early and went to the cafe to buy reload card but sadly its closed..ARGH...when will it open?..I miss my dear so much..wanna msg him but no credit..sobs..dunno what he is doing now...dunno he got sleep well anot..now he sure already wake up for his class le..So long didn't hear his voice le..wanna call him but scare disturb him..wanna tell him lots lots of stuff but scare make him feel annoying..I'm worrying he will stop talking to me..So..slowly slowly de give him some time to let him be comfortable with me again..like last time..wanna help him find back again last time de feel..last time de him..


Although sometimes I felt tired, but I always have the strength to keep moving on..It is called 'LOVE' strength..Don't know you got feel it the same as mine anot..Although I know you r busy with your studies and assignments, but I do hope you can give me a little time to spend with me..That's enough..Only tiny bit time a day also enough le..I will appreciate it de..


Today I had a tiny bit sick le..Maybe didn't sleep well lately..



MISS YOU DEAR..HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON..LUV YA..

GAMBATEH!!

Erm..I dunno you will see this post anot..but what I wana say is..just be brave and do watever things you like..but of course, if you got any prob or feel stressful, don't just keep in your heart..At least try to release your stress by doing things you like..and of course you can talk to me oso..I will try to talk to you more often..not like last time like you be the 'SALESMAN' and I be the ' BUYER '..but sometimes I wanna be that also lo..hehe..I won't push you too hard..I will give you more freedom..but I hope you know the limit lo..coz I know you will be sosialise with alot of peoples especially girls..But I do hope you still can remember that there will always be someone that really cares bout you , waiting for you..Try to slowly get use to it..get use to the life on UNI..I will give you sometime and I hope we can win this 'WAR'..with VICTORY..



ALWAYS REMEMBER..I WILL BE THERE WHENEVER YOU NEED ME..BUT ALSO NEED YOU TO LET ME KNOW..ONLY I WILL KNOW..OK?..JIA YOU..^^

TITLE???Nah..EMO..

Just back from outing..shopping again..for the camp that I will be attend ( compulsory for all the first year students..so no choice but need to attend ) in next week..aiks..spend alot of money again today..I'm tired..exhausted..NO COMMENT...

He still the same..cool..unknown..maybe he is tired..MAYBE..I'm TIRED as well..but my brain don't let me to rest..How long I can stand??..I dunno..Just let it be..Maybe the next time you guys see me, I will be a stranger to you..MAYBE..





MAYBE you guys will say that I'm EMO..Well..I don't care..As long as I know who I am..THAT'S ENOUGH..





Only ONE sentence to describe myself..















I HATE MYSELF...

























God..please let him be healthy all the time..as long as he is not sick , I don't care I'm sick or whatever..and please don't let him be stressful..Thanks alot..



DRINK MORE WATER AR..DON'T GET SICK AGAIN..MISS YOU..

What happen to me??..3 posts in a same day!!..I'm sure had gone crazy already..I dunno what to write coz the only thing I know is I had a mixed feelings in my heart..Who I need to refer with??..NO ONE i guess..Sometimes I admit that I think alot frequently..like to think of those that unrelated to my studies or whatever..I'm scared that I can't stand much longer anymore..I wanna let go my feelings but I don't dare..I know that I shouldn't keep all those in my heart..But it seems that it doesn't wanna move away from my heart..I had a feeling that everything has gone wrong from the very first day I'm apart from my previous life..I'm not as strong as what I thought previously..Sometimes I can sense that someone I've known had changed..


I'M SCARED..I JUST WANTED TO GO HOME........

I AM JEALOUS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a life!!

Aiks..Next week got camp already..I didn't bring anything for camping purpose from my home..everything need to buy again..All also need money..aiks..I need sponsor from anyone to support my finance..lol..who can sponsor me..

My classes all started already..but got 1 lecturer absent..In chinese we call it as '' fang fei ji ''..aiks..dunno need to replace class anot..

so miss my home..I wanna go home..

Life in Sabah..

This is my first post in Sabah..erm..Life in Sabah actually not as bad as what I thought..At first, I had a feeling that I wanted to go home..But after 1 week, I think I had settle down..Although still got feel homesick sometimes..haha..1st few days I will call back home everyday..But now coz of credit, I had to call back home less times..lol..It was already 2 days I didn't talk to my mum..Miss her alot..


Erm..Talking bout my OW in UMS..Well, moring need to wake up around 4am to Kuliah Moral..Then 8 something got taklimat..bla bla bla..till the event finish around 11 sumthing at night..sometimes till 12 sumthing..lol..I fall asleep alot of times thru out the taklimat going on..aiks..what to do..every morning wake up so early..sure tired already..but I skip the Kuliah moral 3 days..wahaha..sleep till 6 sumthing..lol..now the OW had finish..Tomorrow going to start my classes..The earliest is 8am..the lastest class ends on 10pm I think..lol..I'm not sure the time..coz the schedule I print out from the net something wrong..Even the lecturer oso says so..haha..I got a lecturer kinda handsome..although he is 40++ years old..But I'm only get to see him in my 3rd year..aiks..Why he wasn't my mentor..wuwu..

My classes :

Monday : Sains dan Pengurusan Tanah ( 8-10am)

Tuesday : Ekonomi Hutan Tropika ( 8-10am)
Tamadun Islam dan Asia (11-1pm)

Wednesday : Identifikasi Pokok / Dendrologi (8-10am)
Appresiasi seni ( 11-1pm)

Thursday : Pengenalan kepada hasil2 utama hutan (8-10am)
Pengantar Etika (11-1pm)
English for Research Purposes ( 7-10pm)

Saturday : Seni lawan pedang ( or known as fencing!!!) (9-11am)

lol..see my course name already know I'm goin to learn bout forest...aiks..That's not my choices..But what to do..I got to accept it..But my course is more on landscaping..So maybe I can work with the development that build houses..haha..next time I can take control on how many trees that need to be built in a hcusing area..cool!!.. or maybe can create a park..lol..that's 3 years later..haha..btw..for your info..my course name is Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perhutanan Dengan Kepujian ( Taman Alam Semulajadi dan rekreasi )..My school name is Sekolah Perhutanan & Tropika Antarabangsa..only 3 years my course..

Dear today ad starts his classes lo..UUM start class on Sun and rest on Fri & Sat..Miss him alot.!!

I'm only get to go back to Klang on November..miss Klang so much..



Btw..My hostel area punya Wifi need money..WTF..RM10 for 7days ( 8 hours )..RM40 for 1 month (60 hours)..many cukup!!..need to go other hostel to on9..sienz..My hostel name is KAMPUNG E..UMS got 3 hostel..KAMPUNG AB, KAMPUNG CD and KAMPUNG E..Mu hostel is new..but I think it is just the same like others..only food choices alot..lol..but for me the food not suit for me..aiks..now got bit sick sick ad..sienz..



Miss dear dear so much..take care lo..MUAKZ....